thinking about the way schooling is standardized along years makes me extremely, extremely frustrated and mad. youre right the idea that top of class is make or break is already ludicrous, but the fact that i’ve felt before that i liked a subject but couldn’t ‘catch up’ in time to warrant taking the course and had to switch out makes me really really mad.

so this comparison actually helps even more because i realize, it is sort of voluntary, it’s self-managed study and i have no need to impose such constraints and deadlines on myself. your point is really true and useful

i forget i’ve written some for niche fandoms, and my special interest is my own work in my head that is derivative of another (star wars) but enough it’s unrecognizable and whatever similarities are more like allusion.

i like really vapid fluff and even vapid fics based on already vapid media, but often i find the best written fics in random random places that are honestly a wee crazy or like, you shouldn’t be writing that (rpf).

what do you like? what r ur interests?

but did i spread some good pro AES propaganda yes did i do some sloganeering and eeuuhhhhhh sort of correct heuristics yes and it’s not like all is lost and i was the sole and critical fount of knowledge for someone who thought i was the eminent authority on ML who was going to organize purely off what i said. i was just trying to encourage others and i succeeded and now i just need to self correct. and that’s fine, i’m not going to explode completely, i didn’t ruin everything in the whole wide world. no reason to quit now.

more that i think about it i get mad at myself come on bro come onnnn come on brooooo

but this is a fun question i like fun hobby questions like this :3

depends what fandom but also some of my favorites ouh you couldn’t pry them out of me. but sue me i do love really self-indulgent empty fluff (but if i look in my bookmarks i’m sure i can find some good ones)

will think about which ones i would feel not super silly to recommend and start shooting

even aside from theory, this is generally how i feel with things like schoolwork and adhd and executive function, where i have minimal improvements (it feels) since things that feel like the measures of my improvement don’t return really dramatic positive results (grades, schoolwork, deadlines)

clicked on mastodon and this was like the third post i saw. Art

but capitalism BREEDS innovation