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In both cases you are lying to yourself, using your emotional reaction to distract yourself from dealing with reality.

Currently stuck in a similar cycle… my analysis (of my own situation, but maybe you can get something from it): why I’m doing or not is besides the point - the real problem is literal depression - the inability to simply get up and do something. It’s even somewhat independent of how I feel.

Having outside forces (job etc.) do that for me can be a blessing. Which can quickly turn into a curse. But I am extremely bad at self-motivating, as far as simple physical activity (going out) is concerned.